This short story is a creative writing experiment based on research relative to Turkey. The project began after reading a series of interesting articles in an Italian newspaper, and is designed to give an alternative perspective of a country currently scarred by bombs and political unrest.
Chapter One
The bells chimed a rhythmic melody that the wind carried over terracotta rooftops to announce the hour to busy citizens below. It was a quarter to four and people could be seen dashing across the cobblestones below to find their way back to work after their afternoon “pausa”. Pigeons darted away from the noisy bell towers and turned toward outdoor tables that still held the remains of people’s midday meals. The hum of bustling feet and flapping wings created a special kind of silence that permeated through the soundtrack of my afternoon.
The paper beside my steaming cup of tea was dated ‘Mercoledì 24 febbraio 2016’. Despite the early date, a brisk breeze gently glided through my open window, brushing aside my curtains with a sense of spring.
I set aside the added ‘fashion’ or ‘moda’ section of the paper, surprised at not seeing ‘SPORT’ written in big red letters across the top. I then opened the main paper to page 2 – I never read the front page, repetition annoys me so i would rather skip to the full content. I skim the headlines and turn the pages in search of international news. The delicate pages ruffle between my fingertips as i gently fold them into place. It does not take long for me to find satisfying headlines on page 5: ‘Renzi: l’ok per i droni americano verrà <<caso per caso>>’, ‘Renzi: The ‘OK’ for American Drone Strikes will come “Case by Case”’.
My eyes quickly skim across the black shapes resting in four symmetrical columns across the page. The words of Fabrizio Caccia imprinting on my mind one letter at a time, each one dripping with conflict and disaster. The article is spotted with prominent names and titles like that of Italian Prime Minister, Matteo Renzi; American Commander and Chief, Barack Obama; and the increasingly infamous ISIS. the image below presents a map of the coast of Libya, dotted with small white outlines of American F15s and French fighters that recently targeted locations such as Sabratha and Sirte, known for being home to an ISIS training camp and an armory, respectively. Satisfied with reading that the newest Italian drones are not being used to kill civilians, I turn the page…
and again…
before I find the large gray letters: T-U-R-C-H-I-A – Turkey.
My name is Derin. My country? Türkiye. My city? Ankara.
They say every city sounds the same. That the familiar buzz of round rubber and the echo of voices found near clinking glasses is the soundtrack of global society. They say that once you have seen one, you have seen them all. They say that tarmac streets grow old and grey, wrinkled with the cracks of time and use, no matter which language they use to tell their stories. I don’t believe what they say; Turkey is unique, Ankara is unparalleled.
Not every Türk will speak so highly of Ankara, a political capital, the heart of independence; but it is my home. I grew up racing through Genclik Park. I learned history from the Hittites to the Romans, from the Byzantine’s to the Ottomans by simply walking from one side of the city to the other. I am accustomed to the view of the casual site of the Ankara Citadel as it sits in contrast to the modern towering landmarks of commerce and government. I am in love with the site of traditional Anatolian houses in a neighborhood full of restaurants and cafes that grace the streets with the perfume of Turkish coffee and tea.
I study English at Ankara Üniversitesi. My dream is to become a writer, a poet, someone who’s thoughts can be heard, can be remembered. As a child I dreamed of being a journalist for Hürriyet – not the biggest news agency, by any means, but perfect for someone with my particular interest in mind. Working for Hürriyet would have given me the perfect chance to make money for my writing while simultaneously making my way into Turkish literary history. However, as I grew older, I realized that a country whose constant battle between western secularism and islamism would never go beyond conflict in my lifetime. Now, I am learning English. I may not be able to put my soul to paper in my country, but perhaps I can fly far, far from here to write for an Englishman or an American who is willing to read my mind.
Sometimes I feel like all I have is my silence. The silence of a woman.
Bejan Matur, a Turkish poet, once referenced the strength of a woman’s silent disapproval in How Abraham Abandoned Me, a powerful piece which inspires me to say:
But if I could make life silent,
Make it only a series of looks
Create a world hellbent
On changing the books
I would escape the chaos
Escape the bombs, bullets, bigotry
The military, misogynist mystery
The destruction, dissolution, dissent
The ever evolving egomaniac extent
For which I would become famous.
A lowly women in silence
From the world exempt.
But enough about my dreams of silent acceptance, of Kurds and Turks living in peace with both a European and a Syrian border. Enough about my simple thoughts of change and secular religion. Yeterli!
Enough pain!
Enough Sorrow!
Enough pity!
Yeterli!
Until tomorrow…
As you may be able to tell, Türkiye is held within the center of my heart. We may not have the breathtaking, luxurious churches of Rome, but we do have the Kocatepe Camii. Every chance I get, I take the hour walk from my university to stand before the beautiful entrance off of Olgunlar Cadde. It is hard to take my eyes off of the Mosque’s elegant architectural brilliance but, as I pass beside the seven stone pots whose pink and yellow ornaments always seem to find a breeze through which to dance, I cannot help but look down to catch their joy and rhythm as I prepare to climb the last small set of stairs and ascend into the avlu. From the marble courtyard, I am able to take in the beauty of the four minarets; though they were constructed less than fifty years ago, they still remain an architectural marvel.
Every time I enter and remove my shoes, I am reminded of the controversy between Islam and secularism that has sparked great descent within Turkish society since the days of Ataturk. I usually arrive just in time for the sunset, Akşam, call to prayer; as it rings through the city in Turkish, I imagine the days when it used to sound out in a flowing Arabic melody. There are women in my family who remember the closing of medrese, Muslim schools, and the banning of the veils. However, I feel relief as I feel the carpet beneath my feet, offering comfort and seemingly whispering “it is not over, but I am here to show that, one day, it will be…”